and the bluebird flies away.

Things happen, people change.
Time passes, scenes shift.
Gears shift, cogs move.
We're different now.
Then again, perhaps we never were the same.





Spoke to Derek the other day. Due to a lack of suppering people and the RHAU people who always "bo jio". Ha.

Anyway, was a good talk. He seems to be more of a sap regarding my relationships then i am.


I know i ruined it and i am sorry for it. This is how i react to things, this is how i cope. Yet you chose to do the same. Big brother, little brother, i always felt that you and i have been in a give or take situation. We serve as both for each other depending on what happens.

Still it would appear that we both chose to be the spoilt brat this round. I was never lying whenever i said that you're important. Though you always chose to ignore it, you can never realise the true worth of what i had said.

"Basically, i'm not that concerned."

That hurts. But i wonder if it hurts more than what i had done. Yet perhaps you're right all along. People like us, we were merely a product of convenience.


I miss Andrew. Everytime i lose people i remember him. I remember how much he had meant to me. Perhaps i need to move on. Yet everytime when i remember his kindness, i recall the true weight of how what i had lost. The bluebird i held, perhaps was never there to begin with.